Pain

I have pain that flares up out of the blue, and when it does, it can last for hours, days, even weeks. During a recent attack that lasted just over two weeks, I realized how much I alter everything in order to cope. Everything from socializing, to eating, to sleeping takes 100x more energy. I…

Take This

My doctor asked how I am doing recently. My usual response is something along the lines of “The same as the last time I was here”, but this time I couldn’t give that answer. I told her I had on my own cut down my medications to less than a quarter of my normal dose,…

Perspective

Its easy to point out the things that drive you crazy in people; especially when you’re not having it. It’s easy to point out that someone else is cranky. It’s easy to say they’re impatient. It’s hard to see that despite the things that are driving you up the wall, they’re doing their best, and they just…

Snapshots

I find it interesting that someone can come into your life so briefly, yet you know nothing about their past or future. You can see a video clip of a happy-looking couple and think that they must be deeply in love, maybe married, yet know nothing about where they came from or where they’re going….

Happy

Think about it for a second. No matter how big or how little: Waking up to good coffee, laughs with friends, a long walk on a sunny day, or sharing a good meal. These are all the little things in the day that keep me going. But sometimes I wonder, am I on the right…

Need

Today I really needed some help. I have been overwhelmed with feelings of rejection, uneasiness, and depression. Being on edge and awkward, I didn’t tell anyone the cause. Although many parts of the day were filled with great laughs and positivity, it was taken away by a few quick interactions. How does this happen so…

Decline

One reason I decided to start this blog was because this past year has been tough on me. School, family life, and my health. Having what I would describe as an invisible illness can be difficult because you can suffer so much inside, but if you’re an introverted person, no one knows you’re struggling or why you’re acting the…

Pressure

There is so much pressure at a young age to figure out what you want to do in life. As soon as I was able to talk, I was asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I will be 20 in two days, and although I have learned a lot over…

Injured; Part II

After my 8 weeks of bed-rest, I was finally allowed to go to school for a few hours after physiotherapy. I was nauseous, dizzy, and had a terrible headache, but on the self assessment symptoms form I filled out all 0’s, meaning I was asymptomatic. My doctor took one look at it and laughed after…

Here

How do you help somebody who doesn’t want to be helped? I have asked myself this question several times in the past few months as I have watched close friends and family members struggle. Although I can’t imagine the things they’re dealing with, it’s hard trying to support them when they push me away. Being a very…